Why do any of this???

So...if I havent made it clear before I am doing all of this for me. No one else. Self centered. Singular reason. For me. That said, I am not doing it to become a sex object, soft porn star, voyeurs wet dream (sorry had to do it), hustler magazine girl (my boobs arent big enough) or YouTube sensation that teenage boys like to check out and do...well, whatever. Not even close.

I AM doing this because for me...in some way...it shows me that

a.) I no longer have a bit of cancer in my body and my own will, strength and committment makes sure every day it stays GONE

b.) so I continue to have th eenergy to keep up with my family and enjoy every second of my Ben and Maggies little lives. precious moments going by sooo superfast. I dont want to miss ANY OF IT

c.)because honestly being a size 4 is so freakin awesome I cant stand it. Size 12/14 sucked Clothes just look nicer and I can find fun cute stuff.

d.) I inherited bad bad bad genetics...I am running away from them as much as possible (diabetes, depression & heart disease, mostly)

e.) ...and it feels right, fun, and provides a lot of focus to how I go thru my day and manage my life. The physical & mental are highly correlated in my case.

Tho Ive come to this game a little later in life, I believe I found the "right" thing for me. Life's too short not to do things you might be afraid of. when you do them and you "conquer" them it is the most self empowering feeling...ever. There, all for me....

Ok...done...Night!